That’s life, baby. It’s all about living in a fairy tale. And what you keep telling yourself.
Look, we gotta talk..
yeah i know that line.
you dont get it
you’re not listening
stop looking at him
wel you were lookin at her
yes people we all know it
the break up.
starts.
right.
now.
Currently on my must read list: Dan Brown Novels.
I love the way he fuses mystery with quick wit and smart thrills into his novels. I’ve always been interested with history. Right now I’m reading Angels and Demons. I like the The Da Vinci Code better though. Remember it’s what you believe in. What you read may make you question some things you’ve always believed in. I don’t think it can ever change you. You see what you want to see.
I love the way Dan promotes equality and he power to choose. I noticed how he likes playing with the father-daughter/son relationships in his novels. I noticed how he puts special attention to how a father influences his child. Dan Brown also draws the line between being chauvinistic and being a gentleman. In Da Vinci and Angels, he had almost the same thing going (but still the novels are unique to each other); ancient brotherhoods (Illimunati and the Priory of Sion), a man killed mysteriously which is where the whole plot circulates and stems out… a woman, apparently being the daughter of the murdered man, who had a close relationship to her father; on both novels, there is also this one influencial person who is the main antagonist in the story..
Also the fact that issues about women and chivalry are discussed in a smart fashion. With a bit of humor and dripping sarcasm. Dan Brown seals the gaping hole between men and women. And i like that. His damsels-in-distress were never weak (at least in the two novels). His main character, Robert Langdon, was a fine male specimen, a perfect male example all men should idolize. I think. Dan Brown’s attack on history and his personal beliefs encrypted into the story was well-written, witty, and smart.
I wonder what you guys think? Some people dont want to read his novels because of the heresays that ruin the books’ reputation. But anyway it has brought me back into my old interests that was long forgotten. I’m glad I came across his world of Art, History, and Mystery.
Some people may ask: Is Dan Brown a believer of God? Is he a male chauvinist trying to hide his ridicule of femininity in his writing? Does he believe in all the things he says on his novels? Or is he trying to portray his own charcter through Robert Langdon—-A man in between two great worlds of modern times, and historical facts where everythingn began?
Again, it’s what you choose to believe in. It’s just a book, bro.
off to read more of Angels. Ciao.
I don’t think ive ever
been sure of anything in my life. he makes me feel nervous, defenseless, and brave,
and in love—all at the same time.
It’s like the first time we kissed. And nothing beats the
first kiss. Haha. 
we’ve been through so much. im not ashamed of how i feel. and if i can i’d shout it out for all the world to know.
and if we fall apart it break me into pieces.,
i told you, i can watch the sunset on my own,.
Relationships
are hard. I think anyone who’s been on a really serious relationship knows
that. It’s not all about kissing, and dates, I love you filled text messages.
It’s not all about flowers and the whole nine yards.
I’ve been on
relationships. And I used to wonder why couples fall apart. I used to ask
if there was something wrong with me,
that needed fixing. Ang hirap kasi,
you’ll ask yourself questions that are downright rhetorical not to mention
absurd..
I also heard
that ‘your parents are your model couple’. They say, you see
relationships through the example of the people you grew up with. They also
say, you’re father impacts your relationships with men. If this is true then I’d be a hopeless case.
If it’s true for dads, edi dapat your mothers’ example patterns how
we view, or say, how men view women. I don’t know. Masyado ba kong stubborn to
admit these are all true? Admittedly, I can’ say I didn’t believe it before,
when I was younger. I was trying to find answers to my questions and no one gave
me the correct response to make me calm down and just be… for lack of a better
word, ‘normal’. Ang dami kong tanong dati eh. But speaking of rhetorical
questions, the quotes mentioned above are just samples.
I’m done making
excuses, and im tired of other people’s excuses.
I talked to him
about this. I said he needs to give me a chance to understand and finally
accept him as a person. The same way I expect him to understand and accept me
for who I am. I don’t want someone to change because I asked him to. And I’m
thankful kasi kahit pano he tries to really understand me and tries to be
patient with me. And for me that’s what matters. For as long as may pasensya at
pag unawa sa isa’t isa, the problems that comes in the way only strengthens
these two traits that bonds to people. It should, right? Listen to me talking
about relationships when I myself am a complete mess when it comes to my own
personal relationships. He always told me he loved me—and that’s what matters.
When he says that to me, sometimes parang walang meaning. But I realized how
right he was. The more you love someone, the more you can be really patient and
understanding towards that person’s faults, or flaws.
I never had a
relationship that I can call long term. I’ve had relationships, and that’s it.
Sabi nya sakin he is looking for someone na aalagaan nya, and ako raw yung
tipong inaalagaan. Natawa nalang ako eh. I just can’t admit how close to home
he got by saying that.
Marami akong
questions dati…
…most of them
were never answered.
… A lot of those
questions, I realized I didn’t really care what the answers were naman pala.
… Half of those
questions I don’t even have to ask, basic common sense applies.
But here’s some
things that I realized; I let go and move on from a relationship easily when I
realize how much substance is lacking from a particular relationship. Kahit
gano pa katagal yan, kung wala rin naman nangyayari, walang progress, or ayaw
mag-participate nung isa— di na bale.
Or minsan naman,
kahit ba yung isa binibigay lahat but the feeling is simply not there, it still wont work. For obvious reasons. Sometimes
a person just doesn’t see himself with another person.
Im in love. And
I’m a little bit freaked out. I honestly am in new territory.
Relationships
are hard. Totoo yun. Pero masaya at masarap lalo na when you realize how true
your feelings for each other are. You’re still two very different people which
gives the challenge in the relationship.
And when you love someone, and he loves you back? It’s
always worth the fight. I’m happy and proud of myself for taking a risk.
For the first time, I closed my eyes and
just rolled the dice—which is what real love is all about, I think.
♥ a warm cup of coffee—the moment
I wake up
♥ sunny days
♥ a hand to hold when I’m feeling
absolutely down
♥ a blank piece of paper and a
pencil
♥ sunsets
♥ a high place
♥ when he tells me he loves me
♥ when we forgive and forget
♥ kissing and making up
♥ long conversations with my best
friend
♥ a wake up call
♥ waking up and realizing you
still have a few minutes before you actually have to get up
♥ realizing how much you care
about me
♥ 5 days of unlitxt. Simply will
die if I run out of prepaid credits. Pa-load ka naman jan. hehe
♥ Kentucky Fried Chicken. Basta
chiken, go ako.
♥ shopping sprees
♥ dates with my nacho, and me his
encarnacion.. ugggghhh balik tyo Puerto… bukas.
♥ night outs with friends. And
lizzie poo syempre.
♥ when Batista became world champion
♥ getting promoted, hah
♥ knowing I can still fit in my
good ol’ jeans from like 5 years ago
–czher’s version of lizzie’s of
‘the happiness list’. Only better, of course. o♥o♥o♥o
Im trying to find, ‘BALANCe.’
What is ‘balance’ anyway?
Is it about being able to find time for all the things you
want to accomplish in your life? Is it about being complete and happy? Or is it
simply about being contented?
When is enough, ENOUGH? And what is the difference of being
contented from being stubborn to make a change?
And how do you know when the person you’ve become is enough
to match the person you want to be?
Im 21 and I still find myself looking for the things I
wanted way back when I was just around 16 o 17. I still CANNOT let go of the
Barbie Dolls that made my birthdays happy when I was little. I still sometimes
find myself thinking that the perfect date ends with a cold latte and a good
long conversation (including comfortable cab rides, when I’m simply out with a
good friend). Or that I still cannot accept that I must learn how to live on a
budget? Which by the way turns out as
something passable on my not-so –bad-after-all list of things that I consider
that are not so bad. Phhooey.
No, but really I am not going to pretend to preach about
saving and how to be Miss Babydoll-I’m –so-perfect- and- nice. What
I’m saying is that do what works for you. But don’t ever, ever, make choices
that you know you’ll soon regret. Because that is not what you call bravery.
It’s more like stupidity. Trust me. I should know. Wanna hear a story? Haha.
At 21 I’ve made great changes that I want to do with my
life. I’ve made decisions that are so much more different from the life I used
to dream about when I was younger. The blueprint of my life was changed
drastically, edited, revised, and completely made over.
And I’m cool with that. Here’s another thing I go by. This is what I call my Life Mantra:
there’s nothing you can do when shit happens, so DEAL WITH IT.
Anyway, yes, I am trying to find balance. Im trying to
direct myself to a place where I can find happiness, contentment, and peace of
mind. I just realized you can never be any of the three if you’re lacking one
of the three. Or if you’re really lucky, not even one of the three.
You can be 21, 17 or 35. There are changes that we call
wrinkles, or white hair, that we have an excuse for. But changing yourself from
deep within is one thing you can never claim as easy. It never was.
Im trying to find balance.
Have you found it?
Me? I’m getting there. But I still have a long way to go.
mmmm where to start?
*i was at a bar one lonely , fucked up evening. i wasn’t even looking for anybody.
he just popped into my life just-like-that.
i was lonely ,
he was lonely,
i didn’t feel like dancing,
he didn’t feel like dancing
we chatted a little.
i listened.
he talked.
he talked a lot, mind you.
and here goes the story::
before i knew it, we were hanging out more often than i would have allowed myself to. grabe. and i wasn’t exactly available at the time. there was just something that made me forget everything when he came into my life. i wish i can explain it to him, but it really doesnt matter what you, or other people, or even what HE thinks. it doesnt matter. all i know was when we first kissed, i knew i’d be crazy to let him go. its all in the kiss baby. :p
6 months. of bliss . and for the first time. im looking for more. there must be something different about this guy. i always wanted to get rid of men. but i dont know why . this one… i just want him to stick to me like glue. a permanent sticking charm is what i need.
random thoughts.just shut up and listen.
how to save money:
*try to spend only 200 bucks a day
*remind youself you can buy starbucks any damn time! so dont buy starbs coffe for a week. at least
*if you want to buy something, think it over at least ten times before you make your decision,.
*try not bringing your atms, cards, all of your cash with you.
kainis.
i want to go shopping and splurge! but i cant!
anyway next week, im going to see neyo with drent! im super excited.
what next?
i asked him nga, what else we can look forward to after the show … hmph..
i want to know what else there is to life after you’ve graduated, land yourself in a job…. ? what next?
o tapos gusto ko bumili ng art stuff ulit..
and get myself some coffee…
jek and i have a new game.
the 30-second-give-me
we give each other 30 seconds to name or answer a particular question or category.
eto yung mga questions ko sa kanya:
give me ten::
mariah carey colaborations
one word songs
characters in noli me tangggere
monster movies
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my best friend andd her buds went to puerto to celebrate her bday..
i havent gotten her a gift yet. any suggestions?
